Thursday, August 24, 2006
Three years ago this month, when I began my chemotherapy treatment, I prayed that I would live long enough to turn 50. Prayed, yes, and hoped, but I dared not count on reaching such an ambitious milestone when the future was shrouded in fear and uncertainty.
Today I made it!
Perhaps I should have aimed higher.
Since June I have been undergoing tests to determine if my breast cancer has spread to my hip. Thus far there is no confirming diagnosis, but my doctors act as though my fate is sealed in embalming tape.
When I met my new oncologist in July, he asked about my age.
"I will be 50 on August 24th," I told him, feeling so grateful as always for the gift of time these past three years.
Glancing up from my chart, he said with a bracing look, "Well, you should make it to 50."
Next up: a PET scan tomorrow to determine if cancer has spread to my organs. But today I party! By party, I mean enjoy a prime rib dinner free of carbohydrates with my family in preparation for my pre-scan glucose injection.
My son turns 23 on Sunday, but he will spend that evening with friends while my gorgeous husband and I attend the American Idols Live concert starring Elliott Yamin and Taylor Hicks at the Arrowhead Pond. We'll celebrate his birthday on Saturday and I can indulge in all the carbs I want. Hmmm, Cheesecake Factory tiramisu.
As Paddy McAloon wrote, it's been a life of surprises. And I've got news for you, Doc -- it ain't over yet.
McAloon is the genius behind the best band nobody's ever heard of, Prefab Sprout. Please enjoy their video posted above, Life of Surprises.
Posted by Terrie at 9:40 PM